"Where there is love, there is life."
Mahatma Gandhi

Never have I found that quote to be more true. I know reality says I have been plopped in the middle of what could very well be the most horrific, scary time of my life, and yet I feel like I am in the middle of a uniquely beautiful experience.These last 4 weeks I can

"All that each of us can do is to live in the now that is given. We cannot rush the process;

we can only carry out each stage of our lives to the best of our ability."

- Richard Rohr, Falling Upward


The end of the first week of treatments were met with a gifted, 2-night, all expenses paid trip to the Hallmark Resort in Newport for the kids and I. We were treated like royalty and did nothing but relax and enjoy each other's company. (Thank you, you know who

Update as of July 10th:

Hello everyone. I know it's been a few weeks since my initial posting. Last I left you, we were waiting to get the results of the body scan to see if the cancer had metastasized. The scan came back clear...a small victory!  However, because of the tumor size, location on and damage to a main nerve line, the final diagnosis is Stage 4. They believe it started in the minor salivary glands in the roof of

Dear friends, family, and fellow path-walkers,

What a weird time I find myself in. About 2 months ago, my right eye stopped moving and functioning correctly. This was just the final straw in a series of neurological things that have been occurring on my right side for the last year and a half. Over all that time, I saw various doctors in various specialties and no one could seem to find a problem. The most common responses I heard were "Sometimes nerves malfunction." or "This is likely just a problem occurring because you are already prone to migraines."  Even though MRIs, CAT scans and blood tests kept coming back normal, I could feel something wrong. I took several months off from the "search" and enjoyed The Melody of Flight experience at the Elsinore. And still, something continued to feel "off" in my body. So when my eye recently stopped working, I initiated the search again and this time, the problem was found.....

"Follow your bliss and the Universe will open doors
where there were only windows." 

- Joseph Campbell

This path of following the heart is an interesting one. Mr. Campbell is right in that when we commit, fully commit, to a path, the Universe does have a way of opening doors where there were only windows. Unexpected circumstances and opportunities come out of essentially nowhere, paving the next step in our journey.

And sometimes we reach a point where it's easy to feel like all doors are closed and windows have been boarded up! That's the part of the process I've come to know as rest and renewal. During this time, it's so easy to become impatient, feeling like the Universe and it's magical door-opening abilities has abandoned you. I'm learning to be gentle with myself. Instead of becoming frustrated and depressed, I'm learning to rest and trust. It's a time to adjust to this new version of self and develop a new "normal" from this fresh level of perspective. Of course, this doesn't mean I don't feel the restlessness...that intense sense that something is coming, something is about to change (again!), although I have no idea what. I've been here many times before, and it still catches me a bit off guard. This time is especially intense.

So if you're wondering why I've sort of disappeared lately, now you know. I've needed some time to step back, find my center, and sit in the meditative question, "Now what?". And when the answer is ready to reveal itself, you'll be the second to know!

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